135 this pretty much sums it all up


12 days straight 108

I have now worked 12 days in total and it has fall on my shoulders heavily. I am looking very much forward to my sleep in tomorrow. And three whole days of my own. Time to sort out my room I think and do some washing. Today has been a tough one, having an argument with your other half does not give you a great mood. It was also a hard work day, stripping the whole studio. I am sick of bnc cables so long and many ha. But the beer after work was worth it, so was the piazza and frozen with the bestie.
My head is very confused with the boyfriend situation at the moment, maybe I am just tired.

happy Easter everyone, my Easter present to myself is a day off. Time to get my life back.


Tiredness has nearly knocked me out, somehow 103!

It is Sunday, that is a fact. My mind and body does not believe this one little bit, it has now curled up into a ball after having been worked non-stop for 6 days. Tomorrow will be its 7th then another 4 more days. However I got the most fantastic txt off my boss.

– Hope you got back ok, Thanks so much for everything. Do not come in on time  tomorrow, Please have a lie !

Then another

Great News, Thank you, Come in late Please Tomorrow.

Well I have always been one to follow rules, and I have to do what my boss says. Thank goodness. So here is to a full 10 hours sleep. Whoop.



102 , So it’s Saturday right?

Yeah I think it is Saturday, Although I was in the studio at 8, working at the weekend really messes with my head. It is my 6th day out of 11 straight working days. I am already tucked up in bed at 21.30. Work has completely taken over my world. I do not get home till 8 each night as after work I try and have a normal life by seeing my friends but it is knackering. I just cannot wait for the holiday mum and I are booking. whoop 🙂

And again my alarm is set for 4.45 urgh!


DAY 100 . . . Whoop

I cannot believe I have blogged for 100 days. I never knew how long that felt until now. The amount of emotions that I have been through since the start of the year is staggering. I am usually a person who gives up on things but I am determined to keep this diary up. However my paperback diary has lagged behind. My blog was never about how many subscribers I could get, but for those of you who do follow me and maybe skim my terrible spelt writing, I have to thank you. My blog is where I have found a place for my thoughts so I do not have to keep them in and drive myself crazy. SO thank you for reading my blabbing.

It was because of this blog that I went to Rome,

I figured out where to take my mum for her special day

I got to express my anxiety so it did not feel as big as I imagined it.

This blog is helping me so much, making me feel lighter, to get a lot off my chest, that I would not be able to speak out loud.

I found that a blog is like a quite individuals voice. And I have only just begun to shout.


And now onto today! A lovely wake up time of 4.30 this morning. NOT. I was at the studio for 5.15 picking the equipment up. It was a great day in the end. The weather was perfect, I have caught the sun, my cheeks are burning :(. The lesson for the day was to make sure the camera guys get sun lotion on. They are the ones out all day in the sun and should get protected. Camera guys are a strange species, hm that could be a blog title. I think for the future blogs I might not put ‘Day 101 . . .’ and so on. Maybe just the number in the heading???

Anyway I got home and because the weather makes me happy I decided to make a cake 🙂

Cake makes everyone happy.

Night and thank you again, here is to another 100 days!

Day 98. . . Take a break

Tell us your tried and true techniques for focusing when that deadline looms and you need to get work done. In other words, how do you avoid wasted days and wasted nights?


I put the pro in procrastination, especially when I was at uni and still now at work. I would rather be doing something else than what I am supposed to be doing. However you have to get on with it. This is how I got through UNI.

At University you get used to the word deadline and the stress can make you quite ill when writing your essays. The main technique that everyone should take on board at uni is… do not leave it until the week/night before. Give yourself  TIME, there is nothing worse than stressing and making yourself ill if it was your fault in the first place for delaying it.

When doing the research for my essays I always found it easier to write up my quotes that wanted in books and put them into a folder. It was just easier to hold a book and write than type. Plus I think I was hoping it would go into my brain, plus tidy work meant tidy mind.

Highlight the important parts was another reason I wrote my quotes out. Colour coo-ordination helped in a lot of my essays. Either it be co-ordination with the different paragraphs or a different colour for how important the quote is and where it will go.

Timing in the day,  Again TIME but this is more YOU time. Yes you will Procrastinate but if you Take a break you will be less likely to drift off. So how to make this work… Set a goal time, maybe 2 solid hours of work,  no Facebook or any other distractions. Then have your break, do what you like, plus it won’t hurt. Rest your eyes and mind. This goes with anything, Any job . . . TAKE A BREAK. You do not know how refreshing it can be, Deep Breath…

PLAN EVERYTHING- even if it is little, as long as it written and done you won’t have to worry about it. MAKE LISTS, lots of them 🙂

Drink TEA, I find it helps.






Day 76. . . And Breathe.

just-breatheI do love having a bed to myself. I have shared my bed with my boyfriend then my mother then my friend for the past three weekends. All clean sheets I promise. I have had Lottie the last few days, my former uni house mate, class mate and very good friend. I gave her a space in my bed as she had just started a job in London and has not found a place to live yet. I know how hard it is to find a place,  I went through that stress last year and was homeless for two weeks luckily I had a friend to help me out therefore I gave my bed willingly. However I am happy to get my bed back at last whooop.

Today was the first day of a week that could end up stressful. I woke with Lottie’s cold. That was not a good start. I had to creep around a sleeping Lottie. Got to work and it began the stress of a days filming but thankfully I knew what was coming. People took today quite easy.  After we finished I had help to pack all the equipment away for tomorrows location which is an improvement from the other week. The question is… Will we forget anything or have each others equipment tomorrow? Touch wood, lets hope not

So all in all at last, for today only I can let out a breath of relief, tomorrow morning I breathe in again until I get the cameras back to the studio, me into my bed and write this blog. Until then…