135 this pretty much sums it all up

104: My Bad but Good show Tv review.

Believe : To me it is a hit new American tv show that has been given terrible advertising and crappy channel to be aired on. Yes only three episodes in and it is quite predictable. Equilibrium, disequilibrium and new equilibrium. Very old school, yet it still has me captured, by not giving up all it’s secrets. In the third episode you are just receiving important back story. I love episodes where they can weave eras. You have good cop bad cop then the middle area where you just don’t understand why they are there. Then the two main characters, first Tate, who the main character has still yet to learn is her dad. He is well hot. Got me at that point. Bad guy too. So needs a good person, here comes the main character Bo. A little girl who has the FBI and every police officer after her. She has magical powers. That’s about it.
If you are like me and love fantasy, syfi drama you will love it. I am addicted already.

Tiredness has nearly knocked me out, somehow 103!

It is Sunday, that is a fact. My mind and body does not believe this one little bit, it has now curled up into a ball after having been worked non-stop for 6 days. Tomorrow will be its 7th then another 4 more days. However I got the most fantastic txt off my boss.

– Hope you got back ok, Thanks so much for everything. Do not come in on time  tomorrow, Please have a lie !

Then another

Great News, Thank you, Come in late Please Tomorrow.

Well I have always been one to follow rules, and I have to do what my boss says. Thank goodness. So here is to a full 10 hours sleep. Whoop.

Night,

L

DAY 100 . . . Whoop

I cannot believe I have blogged for 100 days. I never knew how long that felt until now. The amount of emotions that I have been through since the start of the year is staggering. I am usually a person who gives up on things but I am determined to keep this diary up. However my paperback diary has lagged behind. My blog was never about how many subscribers I could get, but for those of you who do follow me and maybe skim my terrible spelt writing, I have to thank you. My blog is where I have found a place for my thoughts so I do not have to keep them in and drive myself crazy. SO thank you for reading my blabbing.

It was because of this blog that I went to Rome,

I figured out where to take my mum for her special day

I got to express my anxiety so it did not feel as big as I imagined it.

This blog is helping me so much, making me feel lighter, to get a lot off my chest, that I would not be able to speak out loud.

I found that a blog is like a quite individuals voice. And I have only just begun to shout.

And now onto today! A lovely wake up time of 4.30 this morning. NOT. I was at the studio for 5.15 picking the equipment up. It was a great day in the end. The weather was perfect, I have caught the sun, my cheeks are burning :(. The lesson for the day was to make sure the camera guys get sun lotion on. They are the ones out all day in the sun and should get protected. Camera guys are a strange species, hm that could be a blog title. I think for the future blogs I might not put ‘Day 101 . . .’ and so on. Maybe just the number in the heading???

Anyway I got home and because the weather makes me happy I decided to make a cake 🙂

Cake makes everyone happy.

Night and thank you again, here is to another 100 days!

Day 76. . . And Breathe.

I do love having a bed to myself. I have shared my bed with my boyfriend then my mother then my friend for the past three weekends. All clean sheets I promise. I have had Lottie the last few days, my former uni house mate, class mate and very good friend. I gave her a space in my bed as she had just started a job in London and has not found a place to live yet. I know how hard it is to find a place,  I went through that stress last year and was homeless for two weeks luckily I had a friend to help me out therefore I gave my bed willingly. However I am happy to get my bed back at last whooop.

Today was the first day of a week that could end up stressful. I woke with Lottie’s cold. That was not a good start. I had to creep around a sleeping Lottie. Got to work and it began the stress of a days filming but thankfully I knew what was coming. People took today quite easy.  After we finished I had help to pack all the equipment away for tomorrows location which is an improvement from the other week. The question is… Will we forget anything or have each others equipment tomorrow? Touch wood, lets hope not

So all in all at last, for today only I can let out a breath of relief, tomorrow morning I breathe in again until I get the cameras back to the studio, me into my bed and write this blog. Until then…

Night,

L

Day 71… Daily Prompt: If You Leave

To be truthful I am a person who is likely to quite something quite easily if it wasn’t from something little that always keeps me attached and trudging along. I am in an industry that has very short contracts I am only 23 and have had over 10 different jobs. So I have never had the chance to contemplate leaving… That was until the other day… I have been in the same job now for 6 months that is long for me, my longest job yet ( other than the supermarket but that’s another story) . It got really tough last week, to the point that I was wanting to quit. I felt like I was not good enough for the role. That I was not living up to the expectations of the fellow crew. But finally I have made up my mind I will stay till the end of this series,  for the next series however I am unsure.  I do like change and another 6 months might brake me. The pros however … I would still have a job, It would look better on my CV, I would get better at camera assisting. Cons… Studio is moving over an hour away from where I live, therefore more expensive to travel, I don’t want to get stuck in entertainment I want to spread my wings first. SO do I quit a secure job to follow my dreams or will I find another easier way into my dream after a few more months of learning.

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2014/03/12/daily-prompt-if-you-leave/

I could go into so much more detail… yet it is time to sleep…

Good night,

L

morning journey.

Day 46. . . Ultimate Job

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2014/02/15/prompt-money-for-nothing/

I know many people who work in jobs that they hate,finding it is a chore, they just work to pay the bills. I feel that I am lucky, I did not want a day to day job and was determined to get into an area that I would love to work in the rest of my life. If I had any choice of job in the world that would fulfill me, it would Film Director. I don’t think I will actually achieve it but I am sort of closer than many. I might make it to TV Director one day but films seem to be where I dream of working but finding  my way into film is turning out to be difficult. I have an amazing job at the moment on a great entertainment show, I love it. Being on set filming is such a brilliant rush, it is stupidly long hours and low pay but I love my job. My next step is finding a job in a Drama production, I will keep looking in film too. If you do know of anyone looking for a Runner/ Junior Camera Assistant/ Production Runner/ AD Runner/ Anything Please feel free to contact me 🙂

Oh to become a Film Director, having thousands of people watch your work, to create a phenomenon to sweep cultures. Having people want to go watch a film that I directed, and watching my name scroll up that cinema screen. That it my dream.

And it will probably stay in my dreams forever.

Night

L

Day 31…Dreams change…Things happen for a reason.

Dear Blogshpere,

I was going to write a Five-Friday but this seemed more interesting and insightful ha !

So I am at work right now, it is a down day and I do not have anything to do. There are only two of us in the whole building and a bird… it cant get out  of the building so it will have to stay in until it finds its way out. Anyway what I was just thinking about was how much I love my job, well on days where I am busy which is usually everyday. I remember the moment in life when I decided to get into media. I was walking through a corridor at high school on crutches, I had just torn my cruciate ligament, missed my dance exam and had cried all the way to the hospital and back. It did not bother me at first, I thought that it would just get better, unfortunately I kept injuring my knee. Anyway back to where I was… Walking through the corridor at school, Doctor Who had just made its come back and I was so inquisitive, I wanted to know how it worked what it took to make a programme. I was caught by the media bug, Dance my only dream until then became the past. It was like therapy, I had been crying myself to sleep at the thought of not being able to dance, It was a bit over reactive at the time but you know what its like at 14. Watching ‘How it was made TV shows’ gave me an insight and a hunger to be apart of that industry. Therefore I hung up my ballet shoes, picked up a camera and followed my new dream.
The crazy thing was, I am a person who gives up easily and goes onto the next quite quickly, on this I was not going let anything get in my way. I wanted a job that I knew I would love, and today I reflected back to that day. I could have decided on any career path but I am bloomin glad I bumped into this one.

What was your dream? Are you living it or did life get in the way?

Night

L